It is completely normal to have inconsistent feelings about what is going on with you and your partner. Below is a list of common feelings, but please add to the list if you have others.
How do you maintain balance when you are experiencing all of this??
RESENTMENT (Of others, your body, and sex)
GRIEF/LOSS (Of your dream or feeling whole)
LOSS OF CONTROL
FEEL LIKE A SCIENCE EXPERIMENT (not a person, just a body)
LOSS OF SEXUALITY (Obligation, represents failure, detached, etc.)
NEED FOR SECRETCY (Personal, invasive procedures, self-preservation)
FRUSTRATION (With body, life is on hold, no long-term planning)
OUTSIDE OF SELF
ANXIETY (Cost of procedures, evasiveness of procedures, and outcome)
SELF PUNISHMENT/BLAME (not meant to be, don’t deserve, if only…)
CHANGE OR LOSS OF IDENTITY